You know, I really didn’t expect to be so damn overwhelmed this semester this fast.  I’m in the second week and I already feel like I can’t stay caught up.  But then again, I really screwed myself over this semester when it came to classes so I guess I’m getting what I deserve.  I’ll just be happy when I can stop taking the classes that really “won’t matter” when it comes to my degree.  Yes, I know calculus is important and it saves the world or whatever my teacher told me but honestly… c’mon!  Gimme my bio classes and I’m happy.  I’m looking forward to Virology.  :)  Not looking forward to more chemistry related classes (because I looooathe chemistry).  But I already have my minor in chemistry and I didn’t even know it and now I’m on the verge of a double major.  Do I really need a chemistry major on top of my biomedical one?  Ugh.  UGH!  School is so very, very evil.  Evil!

Guess how much my damn backpack weighs this semester.  Just take a guess.  If you guessed about 47, you’re right.  Yeah - I fucking threw that shit on a scale and it’s almost 50 pounds of pages and calculators and pencils and junk just piled on my back.  That is ridiculous. And it’s about to get 2.19 lbs heavier.  But that’s ok because I really needed that tiny beauty for note taking.  Nothing fancy, just a little notebook for hauling around because there is no way in hell I am taking my Powerbook with me to school.

School is taking me so long.  So very long, it’s horribly painful.  I find myself regretting the fact that I was never motivated enough in high school to apply for colleges or even think about what I wanted to do with my life.  However, if I would have started right away, I have a feeling I would have wasted a large amount of time taking classes I would never use/need.  If you would have asked me in high school if I wanted to be a doctor, I would have laughed so incredibly hard in your face.  I didn’t have that revelation until a couple of years later.  So maybe this is my chosen path and maybe I was supposed to slack off for a while, right?  And if I can save one person (emotionally or physically) then all of this drawn out shit and stress will be worth it, right?  Right.

I hate labs.  I really do.  And right now I really hate my anatomy lab.  I already have to dissect a damn cat next week and let’s just say I’m not too excited about it.  You think I would be used to labs now after taking general bio courses and chemistry and fuckin’ organic chemistry (DIEDIEDIE) but no, I still dislike them.  :/

I’ve never been in a large lecture class, either.  My anatomy class has like 100 students in it and it sort of freaks me out.  It also worries me that the teacher really doesn’t care because how in the hell can you keep up with 100 students?

This is the first time in my college career that I’ve seen students with multiple backpacks.  And I really do understand why they’re necessary now.  The other day I saw a poor girl with three large backpacks:  one on her back, a messenger bag on her shoulder, and one of those roller backpacks dragging behind her.  Good Lord, why must books keep getting fatter?

The address book in my phone has grown substantially with other students’ numbers.  I’ve created groups in my phone - calc partners, anatomy lab kids, and chemistry sucks but these people all know it.  It’s great knowing that if I have a question I can send a mass email/text to everyone and get the answer in about 2 seconds.  But all of us college freaks know that having the answer really doesn’t help you in the end.  If you don’t understand how to figure it out on your own, you’re pretty much screwed.  But nonetheless, texting groups are very helpful.

School; it really is the story of my life.

That’s where I’m at right now and I really will try to update more.  But forget about me - how is everyone else doing? Anyone else in school at the moment?  Are you drowning as much as I am?  For people not in school - how’s your work/kids/spouse/life in general?  I’m curious to see how everyone is doing because I rarely get online anymore to check up on you folks.  So fill me in!

Ok, I shouldn’t even be online right now.  I have three chapters of calc to do plus I need to be studying for an anatomy quiz I have in about 3 hours.

I knew July was going to be trouble.

First and foremost, our court date was yesterday.  We ended up settling the case so I never actually stood before the judge (which is good because I was too damn stressed over everything and I am not sure how well I would have handled it).  Our ex-landlords ended up giving us $500 more which is great.  We didn’t get everything we asked for but oh well, it was fine with me.  They realized they couldn’t argue us with our pictures but there was also a chance that if we continued with the case, they would attempt to countersue us.  I really didn’t want to go through that hell so oh well.  It’s over with, it’s done, the end.

Wednesday afternoon I was at work and got some pretty shitty news.  My job, along with like 20 others, was terminated.  I was in that position for four years.  We got a new CEO not too long ago and he went on a job cutting spree and got rid of most of the people in the same job field as me as well as some directors.  Since I’m not being fired, I have four months to find another job.  During these four months I am still getting paid, still get my full benefits, etc.  So it’s like a four month paid vacation.  Now, while some people would be thrilled to have a four month paid vacation, I’m not.  Not in the least.  I just got accepted into UNC and now I have to find another job that will work around my school schedule.  That is going to be the hardest thing to negotiate with any new job I find.  I’m also not going to find another job making what I’m making now.  No way in hell.  I had it made in this position and now it’s gone.  :(

I applied for another job at the same company today so we’ll see how that goes.  It’s not as awesome as my last position but it’s something.  That way I can keep my same benefits and everything.  AND keep my tution reimbursement.

On top of all this, it seems like every single bill I have is due right now.  Just way too stressed.

Fuck July.  Fuck it.